Saturday, May 24, 2014

Script from my performance at the Disability Pride Festival


As part of the blog you are missing my hand gestures, off script moments and tone with inflections. If it seems kinda familiar that is because my recent post on feeling color inspired this performance piece.

"I would like to start by sharing that I am a visual artist and create paper collages. I use brightly colored paper and multi ethnic skin tones for my art. Big chunks of vibrant often contrasting colors appeal to me as an artist with low vision.


Recently I was thinking about describing my art to someone who has never had any sight. I started questioning how do I describe color in non visual terms and started thinking of all the sensations and experiences I associate with colors. So here are some of my non visual descriptions of color if you are sighted and do not need your vision for communication please feel free to shut your eyes to let the descriptions wash over you. For those of you who keep your eyes open there will be images of the colors described on the screen.


Orange – this orange is rich, warm and soft as if iT could melt in your mouth dripping down your throat with hints of ginger and nutmeg. It is not a thin liquid but thick and creamy creeping in to fill the crevices with warmth 

 


Yellow – bright yellow is exciting and unexpected it fills the space and makes you pay attention. Kinda like when you are sitting in the sun and the heat on the part of you hair almost gets too hot. You just can't ignore that sun because this yellow is in your face saying pay attention to me.




Purple – purple is dramatic it can seem soft like the beginning of lots of classical music with the instruments building into something exciting. Then the music engulfs you and climbs into your soul. Like music sometimes it is more cheerful and other times like this one it is kinda somber and almost foreboding.




Dark blue – is cold and strong it fills the space and has crisp lines around the edges. It is shocking but once you are over the initial plunge it is invigorating if your up for it. Definitely not a color for the faint of heart. Just imagine sticking your hand under a cold faucet in the morning when you thought the water had time to warm up.




Light blue – is the smell of the salt from the ocean, kinda muddled and not distinct but definitely there. With the breeze that is both warm and chilled as you walk along the shore and can hear the faint squawk of seagulls in the distance. It makes you wrap your windbreaker around you and feel thankful for such beauty.




Bright orange – this is akin to yellow, it want you attention and will walk up and bonk you on the forehead because it is a diva. This is the party in a tropical paradise loud and crowded but oh so fun!




These are the colors used in my piece El mensajero del gran espiritu (messenger from the great spirit).


The story behind this piece is that in a vision my half native (Navajo and Ute) grandfather who I never met came to me and whispered in my ear. He said “you are a messenger” then he released me as a blue bird into the vast mesas of New Mexico.


This piece of art is a deep orange circle with the warm ginger and nutmeg dripping down your throat. There are two purple mesas, rock formations placed over the orange on the bottom of the piece, one is slightly warmer like classical Latin music and the other is a little darker and maybe a Russian piece. They are both dramatic building intensity with their steps and ledges climbing. Centered between the mesas is part of a circle of yellow screaming for attention with the sun drawing the eye to it. Above this is a blue bird with wings spread soaring on the air. The bird is crisp, cold and strong cutting through the warm orange. She has light blue accents of rings around her neck plus tail, outlines at the tip of her wings and droplets on her feathers. The accents add a soft beauty of moments walking in a warm wrap on a cool afternoon. And pointed out from the bird into the heavens there is a bright orange beak ready for the party to start and bringing the paajito (bluebird) forward to share her message.





Please join us and open your eyes if you shut them for this piece.




Sunday, May 11, 2014

Happy Mother's Day! Follow up to last post

Abuela Maria Emilia (grandmother Maria Emilia) - Image of a young woman with red hair dancing in the center of a green circle covered with bright pink and hot pink roses
In my last post I promised my mother an image based on a vision I had of her mother so here it is.

I never knew any of my grandparents so my art about them is all based in intuition and stories from my mother's very early childhood memories. In this my grandmother actually merged with my sister as I was creating the work. My mom always said she could see reflections of her mother in my sister with the auburn hair and hazel eyes so I gave my piece orange hair and put it on a green background. I think my grandmother's eyes were green but I am just working from the place of the unknown. Also I remember a story o my grandmother dancing and when I told mom about this piece she shared a story of her mother dancing in the Tierra Amarilla Catina.

As artist I suspect many people work from the unknown. Sometimes we are working to express what we can't explain and other times we are trying to create an authentic voice to connect with others. I know for me I often can give verbal pr written explanations of my art but they are fairly incomplete. It is so hard to put into words what comes through visions and waking dreams.

Nurturing the Flower - A woman in a white dress standing in front of a man in jeans, a t-shirt and a cowboy hat. The couple is framed by 2 arching vines creating a green heart with flowers and leaves. There are als knee level flower at their feet.


The interesting thing is often times other people will see what is under the surface and can sometimes give the words to what elude me. I created this one piece after reading an e-mail about a friends gender affirmation surgery. All these people who knew none of the history commented on how the people were blending into each other and the woman's hair turned into the man's mustache. I did not have to say this is about gender identity and transitioning, many people just knew on an intuitive level.

Digging deep and staying open as an artist seems to bring about work that resonates with the people it is meant to touch. 

Monday, May 5, 2014

Mother's Day e-mail to my mom ila

Happy Mother's Day - 2013 family portrait image was a gift for my mom

Things are still crazy here but I have been thinking a lot about you and mothering. I just sold the Happy Mother's Day piece from the 2014 calendar on April 26th to my friend Hector but there was someone else who really wanted it also. I think it is the beautiful sensuous nature of that lush piece that attracted the attention. My intent was to convey you as the beautiful sensuous woman I knew you to be. I have this friend involved in the bellydance community who said her husband believes until a woman has given birth she does not reach her full potential. Somehow this is what I was trying to portray.


I have recently created a motherhood series and I am clear that women will always dominate my art and you will be repeated through out my work I suspect. In the Roots piece with the tree even though the women in my vision were clearly from India I was really reflecting on the strong roots you had provided. Madre Tierra (Earth Mother) the very pregnant woman is my vision of an earth mother which I based loosely on my visions of the pregnant woman I suspect you wanted to be. Kinda like my grandfather in El Abuelo de mi Suenos (The Grandfather of My Dreams) was from my waking dreams/visions this is the you of my dreams. I recently had a vision of your mother which I hope to have done by Mother's Day so I can send you the image as your gift.



Madre Tierra (Earth Mother) Very pregnant native woman sitting in a leaf in the middle of the earth's beauty

El Abuelo de mi Suenos (The Grandfater of my Dreams) I never knew my grandfather but he came to me in a vision and this piece was born



Que tu camino te lleve a tudestino,
May your path take you where you need to go.
Lavaun


...I must apologize to my mom for taking this personal correspondence and putting it out to the world. I just wanted to share with the world how beautiful my mother is in my eyes and how her beauty and the gifts she has shared with me inspire my desire to create sensual, strong women of all colors. 

The motherhood pieces along with much more will be on display through out the month of May at In Other Words Feminist Community Center here in Portland Oregon NE Killingsworth and Williams http://inotherwords.org/

Saturday May 10th there will be an artist reception from 3 - 5pm with music, nibbles and a brief Q & A about the art.